It is never easy or good to have to say good-bye to a loved one. I have been blessed with not having to experience very many losses but I write this blog post with a heavy heart and tears in my eyes, Dear Bloggites.
On August 7, 2015, I am going to have to say good-bye to my heart, Baden. These two photos show him at 3 years old (photo to the left) and now, ten years later at 13 years old (photo to the right).
He is ready to leave this Earth to the next beyond. Since his dental surgery to remove all his teeth to alleviate a nasty infection that was running through his body and made him blind in his left eye, he has gotten tired. He still has the infection and it is wracking his body to no end. He looked at me last night with the eyes that said, “We had a good run, Mom. But I am ready to go and am only hanging on for you. Please fix it.”
After that look, I promised him that I would schedule him to go to his forever sleep. I told him I was ready even though his look was dubious toward me. It is breaking my heart. He has been in my life since he was 5 weeks old, I have known him since he was 3 weeks. He has supported me on all my endeavors with the fervor only a dog can have. He has helped nurse me back to life after my near-death accident in 2005 and now it is my turn to support and help him by making it all go away and making him better.
He is still the grumpy ol’ ‘tupid dog I love; growls at me when I go give him a kiss or even look like I am going to touch him while wagging his tail. That is our game. He loves me and I love him and my heart will be forever broken once he is gone. I will always remember him as my dog with the attitude but the heart of gold.
Ragonk will help comfort me when I have to tell Baden good-bye. I have been blessed by having this Boy-O come into my life and he gives me joy even though I hurt in my heart. See, back in December, 2014, Ragonk wandered into my garage with no tags and looking very scared and skittish. He has not left since.
I told my sons, Travis & William, and my daughter-in-law, Tori. Tori called me up and we had a good cry and laugh. William’s response (as expected by his Autistic brain) was, “Oh, Wow! He’s my brother.” I told him, “Yes, he is and he will forever be your brother, just like Travis.” My wonderful sister, Debbie, also called me up. She has loved and lost many pets and knows what I am going through. She, too, cried with me while laughing about my grumpy ol’ dog.
I know I will have full support from all my family and friends. They all know Baden well and how much he means to me. I know this separation is temporary, because I do believe dogs and all other animals go to heaven. I know that once he is gone, he will be happy because the pain he feels in this life is temporary, he will be a spry little dog once again sitting by the gates until Momma comes home to heaven with him.
I Love You, My Baden! Thank You for the Amazing Journey and Your Unconditional Love! 🙂
~4-Ever, P (Momma to you, Baden, Baden)