…is full of twists, and turns, and loop-de-loops.
Hello, Dear Bloggites. I am sitting here in the hospital with my Dad, yet again. We have become frequent fliers, he and I. So much so, the name tag on the door states, “This patient is a star patient, he gets star treatment” followed by the fact he can have a snack at breakfast, lunch, dinner, and midnight. Such a frequent flyer are we that the doctors walk in, see me and state, “The important one is here” or “Good to see you again” or “Hey! How have you been” as if greeting a good friend you are fond of.
Yes, this is our life and as hard as it is to live, I would not change a thing of it. The reason I would not change it is very simple. It means my Dad is still alive. It means my Dad has not given up. It means my Dad is a fighter.
I struggle everyday watching him. He fights each day and I fight alongside him to help assist where I can. We make it through each day and rejoice when he doesn’t “wake up dead” (his preferred method of dying, “I want to just wake up dead one day”). I am proud of the fact that he is fighting death with all he has, yet, I am saddened that this fight – no matter how grand – is weakening him more each day.
It is a quandary.
Our life paradox.