A few days ago, I noticed a comic posting on my Aunt’s Facebook page. It made me pause and think. I have started my blog posts each year with words or plans on how I want my year to be. Each year, I have met some goals but also have failed in many others. Especially in my writing life.
When I saw this post, it spoke to me on a very deep level. I know, Dear Bloggites, you are thinking “comics affecting you on a deep level…uh huh…” but that is what it did! This simple two frame comic gave me my word and my focus and my hope!
I am all about building others up and viewing life, no, not life, viewing A DAY as an opportunity to build someone up, no matter how small; I realized I would not only enrich my life but the life of others around me, even for just a moment when helping others build their life up. But having that positive outlook for others when it comes to encouragement of actions in life, I realize I do not share that mindset for myself in my writing life.
No matter what I do, I seem to allow my writing goals fall to the wayside. I hear people say all the time that if you really want something, it will be important, and you will make a point to get/do it as much as you can. I agree with this, but I also disagree with this statement. I love to write and can fall into the world I am creating and exist there for many hours when I am writing, but I realize that it is the sitting down and starting that is holding me back.
I freeze up just at the thought of writing something. All the negative mental talk starts screaming in my head and it screams so loud that it drowns out the thought of writing and forces me to do something else. I hate this! I have self-love with my abilities and actions, but when it comes to writing, that self-love is so stifled that I question why I even bother to try to write anything.
That is the crux of writing for me. I KNOW no one has my voice on subjects and I KNOW that whatever I write is mine and mine alone to share with the world as I see fit; however, the KNOWING is not enough to combat the negativity of “Who do YOU think you are to even believe YOU have anything to say to ANYONE that will IMPACT their life. GET OVER YOURSELF!”
This negative self-talk is what creates the freeze factor for me at the thought of writing anything. I am working on this and the comic strip above is going to be my help. I am going to take it one day at a time and just make sure I write something even for just five minutes and then at the end of 2019, I can honestly say, “I DO have something to say to ANYONE willing to listen and I KNOW it will IMPACT their life, if only for the simple fact that it is something a person can relate to within their life when reading my words.
My word for this year is Opportunity. I am going to take the 365 Opportunities to enrich as many people as I can, one day at a time AND enrich myself as much as I can with my words being penned to paper. Happy New Year! Smooches!