As I sit here hanging with my GrandKiddo, I realize that these are the times that I most enjoy. People get so busy doing things that they really do not allow time to just be in the moment. I am guilty of this as well. I prefer to be busy most of the day because if I am not doing something, I get very bored and sleepy.
Sleep is a rare thing for me. I have been an insomniac for most of my life and I do good falling asleep and sleeping for an hour or two before waking throughout the night. I have accepted that this is my life and as I get older and my body prefers getting up Uber Early every day now, sleep becomes more elusive.
Being bored will make me sleepy and depending on my pain level, I may fall asleep on occasion, but normally, I stay awake and think of what I can do to pass the time. I have many videos and shows I like to watch and of course, there is always a book ready for me to read at the tip of my fingers that help pass the time. But just hanging out with my GrandKiddo or GrandKiddos, or family, or friends, THOSE are the best things to alleviate the boredom and sleepiness.
I know I may be rambling and not really on topic of Mind Over Matter as this blog is titled, but it all ties in together. I promise, Dear Bloggites. 🙂 We have all heard the phrase mind over matter. The all-encompassing “If you don’t mind, it don’t matter” attitude that many take when they don’t really feel like getting into the nitty-gritty of life with other people. This is their way of dismissing someone’s feelings while sounding supportive.
That statement is really not a nice statement. It tells someone that if they can just accept what is happening to them without questioning it, then the feeling they are having is unnecessary and unimportant. How sad is that? When did it become okay to dismiss our feelings? Now, I know what you are thinking, everyone has extreme feelings in this day and age, but really, it is just extreme because they have been conditioned to dismiss how they feel and so when their feelings get so overwhelming from being ignored, they explode.
I think I am going to go back to allowing myself to feel every moment and to appreciate what I am feeling. When I appreciate what I feel, it helps me to become more appreciative of the world and people around me. I said in my blog a couple of days ago or so that I was done trying to be who I used to be. Embracing the emotions, I feel in the moment is a big step for me to let go of the past and the ME BEFORE.
No more hiding my emotions from others but also no more of the extreme blow ups of feelings. Now, if you know me, you all know that I don’t show my emotions so you may be a bit confused by my statements here, but I do feel emotions, but I have also learned to hide them from others because I have to be the strong one. The decision maker.
I will still be the strong one and the decision maker because that is truly how I am built, but the decision to not hide my emotions is really a decision for myself. I will see my emotions now and not ignore them with the mind over matter facts. I will allow myself to feel the nitty-gritty of the emotions washing over me and I will smile every time.
Because really, at the end of our lifetime, you should mind because it does matter. Smiling and embracing ourselves in a positive way is the best way to be true to yourself and feeling your emotions is the truest way you can ever be you.